I’m 58…..but I feel like I’m 70.
I’ve been on the job for 32 years…..but it feels like 50.
I’m sooooo deep-down dog tired.
I used to love this job…..now I dread going to work.
I tire too quickly, drink too much and cry too easily…..
I used to expect the best from everyone…..but now I trust no one!
I used to care about everyone…..now I only care about my family, my fellow first responders and the victims
I used to write in an attempt to change hearts and minds…..now I write to keep sane
Getting very close to the time to pack it all in and retire.
Too much abuse to my body…..to my heart…..to my very soul.
Nothing seems to change; at least not in positive measures.
I’ve just about lost hope on the direction of society and I fear for my children’s and grandchildren’s futures, but feel powerless to protect them.
I desperately want to some how, magically, wake up to a brighter tomorrow but…..
I’ve seen too many suffer, too many perish, too many hate and too many simply demand that “we” provide for “them”…..entitlement!
I’ve seen too many people lie & cheat & worse with no consequence…..and too many good people punished in the name of “image” or “political correctness”…..
I’ve seen too many people abuse the power afforded them and too many good, decent, moral people who feel (correctly so) powerless to make a difference.
At some point a person has to walk away…………………………